Hacking myself

I was too tired to blog these days. I'm sorry. Anyway I think there's a good reason in the end.

I've been doing a lot of exercise, for some strange reason I felt I had to.

Well maybe not "a lot" but I'm increasing it.

I think, Friday my right hand started to hurt a lot before I went to bed. I did a stupid strong movement that I shouldn't.

I applied something warm and it helped. Saturday morning pain was gone, then it came back at night and finally was gone at Sunday.

Sunday I rode my bike a lot. it was weird because my legs were tired and when I started to ride it felt similar to my beginner training, I lost my balance and stuff. But after a while I could control the bike perfectly again. I didn't fell even once that day. So I guess I can say I totally learnt to ride a bike. I trained to stand in the pedals, and that skill is getting better. sometimes I feel like I will fall forward, but fortunately it didn't happen.

After that I fell it was a loong time since I felt so tired. It was nice cause I felt younger somehow :P

Today I was thinking about the pencil technique I posted about before and I was thinking.. maybe if I tie the pick to my hand, I can lay guitar effortlessly.

And it seems it worked. I'm not sure thou because sometimes I feel the pain the next day, but I really felt much better playing guitar that way, my right hand didn't feel the usual stress.

So it seems I have to hack my hands.

They are already hacked thou, since I use something in my hands since some time ago, but modifying things so they won't produce pain seems to be the way to go. Of course I have to keep doing exercise.

This makes me feel optimistic . I'll try to be more productive this week (unfortunately last week I wasn't) but in fact. Today I was drawing things I had to do, and I wish I keep being active.

Also I started to watch Paradise Kiss (some weeks ago). It was an anime I wanted to see someday but I always forgot to watch. I finally started and I'm liking the show a lot. I wonder if there are more animes like that.

Thicker is better

Today I spent most of the day thinking it was Saturday. Then I realized it was only Friday. I guess it doesn't change things too much anyway.

I made a discovery searching in google that may help me a lot I hope. I found that using a thicker pencil sometimes can help with arm injuries. So I tied something in the tablet pencil and it was really helpful. Of course it wasn't a miraculous solution but I feel less strain in my elbow now. So I'm wondering if something like that would help me to play guitar too, like using a thick guitar pick.

My hips are feeling much better now, so in the end my elbow is the only issue that is bothering me a lot. shoulders and knees too, but in a lower degree. I can't walk too much I guess, but there is an improvement.

I'll try to improve my aerobic condition, it seems I can do some things like that now.

Talking to myself

I forgot about the blog today.  however I'm feeling fine.  Just my stomach was in pain.  I feel I did a lot of exercise today.  I think I'm going to dance often again. only easy songs thou.  by the way  now I am writing this by voice,  I am dictating to my phone what I'm  trying to write. it works fine,  it's much better than the windows  voice recognition.  the only bad thing about it is that  I have to say short sentences,  I cannot speak long photographs,  but it's okay.

I'm starting to like the city again

Oh no I almost forgot about the blog. Today nothing important happened, except my kinesiologist came to my home and checked me.

I have new excercises to make. Also I truly learnt how to use a TENS unit.

My elbow was today's problem but I think it was a nice day in generla and my hips are hurting much less.

I think I'll make a larger entry next time

I'm not really good at photography.

I'm so sleepy now but here I go.

I went to a birthday party today, I'm fine now but I hope I won't regret it tomorrow. (Because of what I ate)

I miss eating birthday cakes but I'm really sure they have a bad effect on me so they are kind of forbidden for me now.

I received some good news today, so I have another reason to e optimistic about the future.

Although I confess it was a very lazy day. I could have done something productive.

I wish this time everything will be different.

Riding on dead leaves

Today was a pretty active day. I rode my bike a lot and drove a little my parent's car. I feel bike riding is the best exercise for me, nothing really hurts when I'm riding. However I didn't get down properly and my left hip felt very bad about that. Is getting better now thou. And well, I don't fall from the bike anymore.

My stomach is getting better too , I was very careful about what to eat so I hope this time I will recover faster than usual. With time I'm learning what makes me feel bad.

Maybe the only bad thing about bike is that I have to use tendons in the forearm... and, well, in the moment was okay but now they are starting to hurt a bit.

Days like these are great. Sometimes I feel guilty about it thou, since I have fun and I'm not doing something productive, but seriously I consider that the bike should be an important part of my treatment.

And this week if my arms feel ok, I should be productive.

And I have to say today Game of Thrones was truly awesome!

natsukashii

Natsukashii is a japanese adjective that describes something as "nostalgic". Today I felt very nostalgic about my days in the pump it up and Ez2Dancer arcade dance machines. I had the time of my life there, I started to like physical activity and the most important thing, I met so many friends there. It's a pity that stuff like that now are played at house and of course is not the same. Well, to be able to play at home is great but I miss the arcades so much.

last night I couldn't sleep well , mainly because of my stomach. I felt a very sharp pain in the lower part, and when I woke up my heart was aching a bit.. I guess since I haven't slept properly my body feels tired.

so I really hope today I can sleep without any trouble.
An today, even nothing that important happened, and I'm in pain because of my stomach and hips mainly, I feel very happy. I feel like I should keep on going my illustration works. Also I keep meeting good illustrators in this area and that's amazing.

Days are getting very cold but well, the city is like that. Until now at least is not a big deal thou.

I wish I could be stronger.

Do you want to make a snowman?

It's freezing here today. Also I hate those guys that sell stuff using a megaphone, they woke me up in the morning.

Anyway it was a lazy day. At first I was feeling better about my stomach but then I felt awful. In this moment is OK. But damn is so cold. At least in my bed is not cold at all

I'm proud of myself

Back in the blog again. I was kind of busy and then I just forgot really.

Yesterday my stomach pains came back. I just ate potatoes and meat. Is so weird that meat suddenly has a negative effect on me. I'm not sure if that's the case anyway.

My elbow is always bothering, that's like an everyday thing. However I felt a short sharp in my right hand. Maybe becasue I was playing bass guitar a bit yesterday. Is kind of strange that yesterday my hand felt very good doing things like that. I thought it would be no problem.

Also I had problemas to sleep last night becasue of my hips. if I sleep like with my knees together, it hurts after a while so I have to separate them.

I think I got the flu also, but I guess that's the less important of my worries. I just hope it doesn't last months like sometimes do.

At least my shoulders feel a little better.

I was learning about mixed connective tissue diseases. It's probable I have one of them, but I'm not sure.. in case I have that, is in a very low scale, because they seem to be very harmful diseases.


To be honest there's a lot of things sometimes I'd like to write besides my health issues but I know I will be writing forever about them so now I prefer not writing about them. I like to write about my health becasue I want to someday discover what's happening to me and this will be part of the process. I can always check back how things are happening. I know it should be a personal journal, but then I thought if this has some value it would be good that other people know about it.

Also I think this will be the last journal including spanish translation. I feel is kind of a wast of time since I know the people who read this can understand english and I don't really care to do a proper spanish translation.


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(español)

De vuelta en el blog . Estaba un poco ocupado y luego me olvidé en realidad.

Ayer mis dolores de estómago regresaron. Sólo comi patatas y carne. Es tan raro que de repente la carne tenga un efecto negativo sobre mí. No estoy seguro de si este es el caso de todos modos.
Mi codo está siempre molestando, eso es como una cosa cotidiana. Sin embargo, sentí un dolor corto y agudo en la mano derecha. Tal vez fue porque estauve jugando bajo un poco ayer. Es un poco extraño que ayer mi mano se sentía muy bien haciendo cosas por el estilo. Pensé que no habría problema.
También tuve problemas para dormir anoche a causa de mis caderas. Si duermo con las rodillas juntas, me duele después de un tiempo, así que tengo que separar las piernas.

Creo que tengo gripe también, pero supongo que es la menos importante de mis preocupaciones. Sólo espero que no dure meses, como a veces pasa.
Al menos mis hombros se sienten un poco mejor.
Estaba aprendiendo acerca de las enfermedades del tejido conectivo mixto. Es probable que tengo una de ellas, pero no estoy seguro .. si tengo una, está en una escala muy baja, ya que parecen ser enfermedades muy dañinas.
Para ser honesto hay un montón de cosas que veces me gustaría escribir, además de mis problemas de salud, pero sé que voy a estar escribiendo sobre ellas eternamente , asi que ahora prefiero no escribir sobre ellas. Me gusta escribir sobe mi salud porque quiero descubrir algún día lo que me está pasando y esto será parte del proceso. Siempre puedo comprobar cómo las cosas están sucediendo. Sé que debería ser un diario personal, pero luego pensé que si esto tiene algún valor que sería bueno que otras personas sepan de él.

También creo que esta será la última publicacion que incluya la traducción en español. Siento es una especie de tiempo perdido porque sé que la gente que lee esto se puede entender inglés y yo realmente no me esfuerzo en hacer una traducción en español adecuadamente.

Fell on black days

I've been so irregular with the blog, to be honest I've been irregular about many things.

I really want to fix myself but I feel like so exhausted. In a spiritual way, I guess.

Today I sang a lot and it felt very good, it really felt like I leveled up! I think there's nothing more rewarding than getting better at something. Specially when it was so hard to do it.

my right shoulder feels very loose. To be honest I feel like I still don't know how to use my shoulders and upper back muscles.

I was using TENS more often but the battery died.

I hope I feel more cheerful soon.

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He estado irregular con el blog, para ser honesto, he estado irregular de muchas cosas.

Realmente quiero arreglarme, pero me siento tan agotado. De una manera espiritual, supongo.

Hoy canté mucho y se sentía muy bien, realmente se sentí como que subí de nivel! Creo que no hay nada más gratificante que mejorar en algo. Especialmente cuando es tan difícil hacerlo.

Mi hombro derecho se siente muy suelto. Para ser honesto siento como si todavía no sé cómo usar mis hombros y los músculos superiores de la espalda.

estuve usando TENS más a menudo, pero murió la batería.

Espero mejorar mi animo pronto.

In the mobile

First time trying to blog from the phone. Kind of uncomfortable. Today I just painted,it was fun. But that's all I can think for today.  It was a lonely night

Black cat

Today I got back to painting with ink. I didin't go quite well but everything is good for practice. The bad thing is my brushes, they can't stay pointy. Maybe they were made to be round, or they are bad quality.

I feel a bit of pain in my right hand thou, but maybe it was after painting in the PC.

Today my stomach hurts a lot, well now it doesn't, but I felt some intense pain today, maybe cause I ate beans I don't know.

it seems today I'll go to sleep earlier, I hope I will.
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Hoy volví a pintar con tinta. No me salió muy bien, pero todo es bueno para la práctica. Lo malo es que mis pinceles, no pueden permanecer con punta. Tal vez estaban hechos para ser redondos, o son de mala calidad.


Siento un poco de dolor en mi mano derecha, pero tal vez fue después de pintar en el ordenador.


Hoy me dolió el estómago mucho, así no eso si, pero sentí un poco de dolor intenso hoy, tal vez porque comí porotos, no se.


parece hoy voy a ir a dormir más temprano, espero.

Been a while

it's been a long time. I didn't update lately.
A lot of things are happening thou, maybe when things are going fine, I don't feel like updating the blog.

My body is kind of fine except for my elbow. It's been hard to keep the excercise routine lately, I feel is getting kind of boring maybe. But I still do it everyday.

My stomach feels fine I think but I still think that eating some food like meat is hard for me to eat.

Lately I felt my singing improved but today my throat hurts like hell. Sometimes when I feel I'm improving I try to sing the hardest songs ever and that usually ends up very bad,

I have many things to do in certain way but is so hard to know what to do and when. I have to plan carefully everything since I don't know if my arms will allow me to. In certain way I have to learn how to do things step by step.

I wish things keep getting better.

Ha pasado un largo tiempo. No había actualizado últimamente.
aunque muchas cosas están sucediendo, tal vez cuando las cosas van bien, no me dan ganas de actualizar el blog.

Mi cuerpo está como bien, excepto por el codo. Ha sido difícil mantener la rutina de ejercicio últimamente, siento que es cada vez un poco más aburrido tal vez. Pero todavía lo hago todos los días.

Mi estómago se siente bien, pero creo que todavía el consumo de algunos alimentos como la carne es difícil.

Últimamente sentí que mi canto mejoró pero hoy me duele la garganta como el demonio. A veces, cuando me siento que estoy mejorando trato de cantar las canciones más difíciles ever y que por lo general termina muy mal,

Tengo muchas cosas que hacer en cierto modo, pero es tan difícil saber qué hacer y cuándo. Tengo que planificar cuidadosamente todo porque no sé si mis brazos me lo permitirán. En cierto modo, tengo que aprender a hacer las cosas paso a paso.


Quisiera que las cosas sigan mejorando.

Blocked

It was a lazy day. I was in the PC most of the day. I tried to sing a bit, but I felt I sounded better yesterday. Singing is so frustrating.

I used my TENS in my elbow last night and it felt very well. Next day my elbow was very comfortable but in the night started to hurt a bit.

I hate when something like this happen. I mean I feel like I should do something useful but I don't feel like doing it, or I can't becasue of the pain.

Anyway so many things going in my head now... Maybe I was reading too much about the hiperlaxity and Ehler Danlos stuff and it was depresing.

(español)

Fue un día flojo. Estuve en el PC la mayor parte del día. Traté de cantar un poco, pero sentí que sonaba mejor ayer. Cantar es tan frustrante.

Usé mi TENS en el codo ayer por la noche y se sentía muy bien. Al día siguiente, mi codo estaba muy cómodo, pero en la noche empezó a doler un poco.

No me gusta cuando algo así. Quiero decir ,que siento que debería hacer algo útil, pero no me siento con ganas, o no puedo a causa del dolor.


En fin, tantas cosas pasando en mi cabeza ahora ... Quizas estuve leyendo muchas cosas sobre hiperlaxitud y Ehler Danlos y fue deprimente.

Letters from the lost days

Oh I forgot again about the blog :/ Anyway this is my update

my thumb is a little numb these days I don't know why. But not much pain these days really. Just a bit in the elbow after drawing.

I've noticed my knees are working very well. I was walking a lot in downtown and my knees did a good job.

However my connection pelvis/ left leg feels uncomfortable. I didn't sleep well becasue of it.

My stomach started to feel bad, maybe becasue of the orange juice I drank. I need vitamine C though.

I remade a painting in a T-shirt. it looks way better than before but I still need to improve.

It seems there's a lot of opportunities for me lately I hope my health let me take them.

Also, today I found some hand-written letters from my youth. It was the most nostalgic thing I ever found however I din't dare to read them.

(Español)

Ah se me olvidó otra vez el blog: / De todas formas esta es mi actualización

mi pulgar está un poco insensible en estos días no sé por qué. Pero no ha habido mucho dolor estos días realmente. Sólo un poco en el codo después de dibujar.

Me he dado cuenta de que mis rodillas están funcionando muy bien. Estaba caminando mucho en el centro y las rodillas hicieron un buen trabajo.

Sin embargo, mi conexión de la pelvis / pierna izquierda se siente incómoda. No dormí muy bien por eso.

Mi estómago comenzó a sentirse mal de nuevo, tal vez por el zumo de naranja que bebí. Necesito vitamina C eso si.

Rehice una pintura en una camiseta. se ve mucho mejor que antes, pero todavía tiene que mejorar.

Parece que hay una gran cantidad de oportunidades para mí últimamente, espero que mi salud me deje aprovecharlas.

Además, hoy he encontrado algunas cartas escritas a mano de mi juventud. Fue la cosa más nostálgica que he encontrado, sin embargo no me atreví a leerlas.

Don't trust anyone

sorry I didin't update yesterday. I was in my cousin's birthday and we played Game of thrones the card game until it was very late in the night. It was very fun, since it was the first time I played the game in a 3 players match.

And today I was in the board games day event, I learnt how to play El Catan (and that I shouldn't trust anyone)

Last night I ate too much and tympanites are bothering me, but I don't feel pain really. My appetite is growing stronger too.

Today my elbow bothered me a little, but it felt more close to exhaustion. usually is a little more close to pain. Anyway I was sitting too many hours lately , not good.

In the end was a nice day I met nice people too I guess.

(español)

Siento mucho no haber actualizado ayer. Estaba en el cumpleaños de mi primo y jugamos Juego de Tronos el juego de cartas hasta que fue muy tarde en la noche. Fue muy divertido, ya que era la primera vez que jugaba el juego de 3 jugadores.


Y hoy estuve en un evento del día de juegos de mesa, he aprendido a cómo jugar El Catan (y que no debía confiar en nadie)


Anoche comí demasiado y el meteorismo me están molestando, pero no siento el dolor realmente. Mi apetito está mejorando también.


Hoy mi codo me molestó un poco, pero era una sensancion mas cercana al cansancio. por lo general es un poco más cercana al dolor. De todos modos estuve sentado muchas horas últimamente, no es bueno.


Al final fue un buen día, me encontré con gente agradable.